My Conversation with God … September 27, 2020

Me: Hey God!

God: Hey Matt. How are you doing today? You’ve been through a lot over the past week. I’m rather glad you chose not to write about the conversations we’ve been having. Some of our conversations should just be between you and Me.

Me: Agreed. It was a rough week. And, I was kind of hard on You through much of it. There was so much going on that I just didn’t understand. Frankly, a lot I still don’t understand. It just made me angry and confused.

God: Yep. Life is going to be that way sometimes. When it’s your time to come home, I’ll explain it all to you.

Me: I know, but that doesn’t help much in the day today. Listen, I’m sorry. I’m sorry for my rants over the past week. I certainly could have been more diplomatic in a lot of my prayers. I did hold it together – largely – in talking to others; but I gave myself permission to “let it out” with You.

God: I know. I’m glad you did. And, I forgive you. A lot of the time you bottle stuff up and don’t share it with Me. That’s a bad idea, by the way. But recently, you’ve been bringing a lot more to me and a lot more regularly. What’s up with that? Look, I’m happy about it, of course, but I’m curious to hear you tell me about it.

Me: Well, with the stay at home instructions that have come with COVID-19, you have take away a lot of my typical distractions. You helped me focus.

God: Yes, I did do that …

Me: But even with that, I can be pretty stubborn.

God: I am well aware of your stubbornness. You know, you’re not the only one I hear from about your stubbornness.

Me: I’m not going to ask :-). I’ll look at it this way, … it’s nice to know that a lot of people are praying for me.

God: Good call. We don’t have time today to go through that list anyway :-).

Me: You have to poke fun, don’t You?

God: You know I mean it in love. And, I know you need to hear it.

Me: Anyway, where were we? What has renewed my interest in talking more regularly with You? Honestly, I found that depending on myself so much wasn’t working. Not talking regularly had become really easy, but it wasn’t helping. I was reminded that I needed You more than my behavior was showing. My words and actions weren’t matching up very well. It was time for a change.

God: I’m glad you noticed. I mean, you know I would never forsake you, but it did hurt My heart when our chats were less frequent. Think about how you feel when too much time goes by between calls with your mom. She’ll never stop loving you, but she is always happy to hear your voice. You are too. So am I. By the way, your dad and grandparents say hi. They send their love.

Me: Thanks. Anyway, I’ve had a bit of a renewal of spirit. A recommitment to study, to prayer, to fellowship. Heck, we even started a new bible study with four other couples.

Ged: We? It make me happy to know that you two are doing more together. It makes Me doubly happy that it involves Me, and that it is connecting you to other of my kids. Keep that up; it’ll do you a world of good.

Me: That’s the idea. Anyway, I am hoping this week will be better than last week.

God: Do you trust Me?

Me: Of course, I do.

God: Then trust Me, things will get better.

Me: Oh, I know they will, it’s just that whole “God’s timing” thing I struggle with again.

God: That’s why they call it faith, Matt. That’s why they call it faith. Just have faith, be still, and know that I am God. Now, get some rest. You have another big week ahead of you.

Published by Matt Berndt

Christian | Storyteller | Husband & Father | Foodie | Gym Rat | Football Fan | Texan by way of Southern California, Southern Germany and Western New York | Child of God

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