My conversation with God … July 5, 2020

Me:  Hey God, Matt here.

God: Matt, so nice to hear from you. It has been a while. I wish we would chat more often.

Me: Yeah, I do need to talk to You more regularly.

God: That would be nice.  I love hearing from my kids – in good times and bad.  You know I am always thinking about you.

Me: I think about You a lot, too.  And yes, I should talk to you more often.  I’m trying to use this whole COVID thing to develop some new good habits.

God:  How’s that going for you?

Me: How’s it going for me?  I kinda think you already know.

God: Yeah, but it’s nice to hear you tell me about it. Come on.  You know I’ll listen.  I want to listen.

Me: Well, I’m going to the gym or taking a walk just about every day.  I am really happy my gym has reopened.  Henry is a little bummed the gym reopened because that has meant fewer walks.  He’s fine though; he and Frankie chase each other around the pool and swim a lot, so they get their exercise.

God:  I miss your walks, too.  We talk a lot more frequently when you take walks.  How about getting walks back in your rotation?

Me: That’s a good idea.

God: I have those from time to time. 😊

Me: That’s a little snarky!

God: I’m just being honest … and remember, I do have a sense of humor.  I love to smile and laugh.  It’s good for the soul and it makes those around you feel so much better when it’s done in love.

Me: Sorry. I know. It’s just been kind of stressful lately.  We’ve been working from home now for more than four months.  It’s starting to get to me.  The election isn’t helping either. And, the whole Black Lives Matter thing. Every day, it seems, something crazy happens.  It’s like Monday says “top that!” and Tuesday says, “hang on, hold my beer.” And, of course, Wednesday is just waiting for her turn …. and the rest of the days are waiting in the wings. Every week.

God: Wednesday is a girl?  

Me: Huh?

God: You said, “Wednesday is waiting her turn.”

Me: You tell me. I’m just making an effort to not refer to everything with male pronouns. Diversity and Inclusion is an important priority these days, and I’m an old white guy trying to grow and be respectful.

God:  Matt, Wednesday isn’t male or female.  It’s a day of the week. But, I know a lot of people appreciate the fact that you’re making an effort.  It shows you care, and that makes me happy.  Always make an effort. Just don’t get too stressed out about it. You’re going to make mistakes.  You’re only human.

Me: Ha ha! And you’re not!  You’re having fun with this, aren’t You?

God: I always enjoy talking to you (just remember, I say that to all of my kids 😊).  So, what’s going on today?  To what do I owe the pleasure of this visit.

Me:  Do I have to have a reason to want to talk to you?

God: Of course not.  I wish we talked every day and about everything.  It’s just that … well … usually there are specific reasons when my kids call.

Me: That’s fair; and true. Sorry.

God: I forgive you. And, of course, I know why you called. I just like to hear you tell me.

Me: Okay, it’s everything that’s going on right now. COVID, Trump, Biden, Black Lives Matter, Facebook, work, church, the evening news; I can go on, but you get the idea.

God: Yes, I know what’s going on. What’s your question?  What’s on your mind?

Me: It feels like the world is being torn apart right now. People are taking sides and not listening to each other.  I mean everywhere.  Crazy stuff.  Within the church, across the country, within families. I’ve never thought of myself as any kind of activist, but I feel more and more like one these days. It makes me uncomfortable.

God: There is nothing wrong with some discomfort in your life, you know that. You should expect it. I love you too much to just leave you the way you are; and change is usually uncomfortable

Me: I know, I’ve just never been through anything like this.  I’m scared.  I’m nervous.  It’s hard to know what to do or say. There are so many bad things going on right now.  I hear people ask “why would God allow all of this to happen?” It’s really hard to know what to do or say.

God: Very few people living today have been through anything like this before.  You’re not alone in that feeling. Remember, I never said this was going to be easy.  In fact, if I recall correctly, I told you following Me was going to be tough; that you were probably going to suffer for it from time to time.. 

Me: IF You recall correctly?

God: I’m on a roll today, don’t you think?

Me:  Very funny.  But seriously. Why are you letting all of this happen now … and all at the same time? It feels like a powder keg down here.  One stray match and boom.

God: Yes, y’all have made quite a mess of things.  By the way – you don’t mind me using “y’all”, do you?  You are in Texas after all. It just seemed appropriate, and we are family.

Me:  Go for it.  We like to think You’re a Texan anyway.

God: Look at you with the jokes now.   It’s good to see you smile.

Me: Trying to do my part. Seriously though.  What’s going on?  Better, why are you allowing all of this to happen and when is it going to end?  How is it going to end?  Not ultimately. I get that … and I hope that’s not where we are. Don’t get me wrong, I can’t wait to see You face to face.  Your will be done. But, I’d like to hold off a bit.  I hope You’re not done with me down here yet.  I hope You’re not done with us.

God: That’s for me to know and you to find out … when it’s time.

Me: I know.  Your timing, not mine.  You know, that gets a little annoying sometimes.

God: I think you’ll survive! Let’s get back to your question …. Essentially you’re asking me “why”, correct?

Me: That sums it up.  Why?  Please help me understand why.

God: Okay, let’s unpack that question.  You use that phrase a lot. I figured you’d relate to it.

Me: You know me pretty well.

God: I knit you in your mom’s womb.  So, … you want to know why?

Me: Yes, why?

God: That’s a big question.  Are you sure you really want us to have this conversation? Or, did you just want to vent today.

Me: I am, but I gotta get some sleep.  Starting back to work tomorrow after a little vacation time.

God: I know.

Me:  Can we continue this conversation tomorrow?  Pick up where we left off?

God: I hope we do.  I love you. Always have and always will.

Me: Love you, too.  Thanks.  Good night.

Published by Matt Berndt

Christian | Storyteller | Husband & Father | Foodie | Gym Rat | Football Fan | Texan by way of Southern California, Southern Germany and Western New York | Child of God

One thought on “My conversation with God … July 5, 2020

  1. I loved this, I thought it was great. I can write some more, but I don’t know if I wrote it, I would be crossing a line. And I don’t know who reads your column. Wouldn’t want to offend anyone. Please take care of your self and your family. I worry about you all, how bad it is in Texas\ and how close is it to you. I am a Texan, I was born in Texas and grew up in Compton. Oh well. Say hello to Melissa and your beautiful daughters. Are they like you? If so I can imagine them with your personality.

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